Wednesday, September 2, 2026

One Thing (Thought) Might Lead To Another idea

 

I am a follower of Ayn Rand and I like her epistemological and/or metaphysical trichotomy between the subjective, the intrinsic and the objective.


Still, I am not a true believer in subscribing to her views. For example, I am for metaphysical moderation, which allows me to assume that she is mostly right that we are born tabula rasa, but that our innate ideas and the makeup of our human natures strongly color and bend what genetics and environment hand us.


At least five intrinsic ideas which I feel but cannot prove are foundational ontologically in my thinking. First, God exists. Second, we are born more depraved than morally neutral or basically good. Third, the truth about the world is moderate more than extremist, too much or too little, and Rand is absolutist and totalist too much. Fourth, egoist morality is the most benevolent code of morality under which a human can make choices. Fifth, I do agree with Rand that as rational beings with free will, we must choose how to live.


Now, I want to highlight but two of these premises as having helped me reach some original conclusions about the nature of the Father and Mother, major deities and minor deities, all spiritually and morally good.


If moderate morality or moderate truth is the rubric that runs the universe, and God created the world, then God loves moderation more than extremism. Thus when Christians (or any other denominational backers) claim to be the one, true faith, that Jesus is the only way to heaven, and that all unbelievers and other-believers will burn in hell, they verge over into lying and extremism, which are demonic traits, proclamations and practices, alien too and resolutely repudiated by Jesus and all other good deities.


My ethics is rational egoism. If rational egoism is the preferred and promoted morality of all the good deities, then such a moral system informs the believer, or offers him a glimpse into God’s perfect or near perfect nature. If egoism is the divine moral code, then the good deities are egoists more than altruists, loners more than joiners, individuals more than collectivists


It was, over many decades, my latching onto foundational beliefs about moderation being the way to live and detect what is true and what is false, and that egoism is the finest moral standard available, then I somehow concluded that these two ontological realities inform us profoundly and substantively as to the nature and personality of the good deities.


I wish to hasten to reassure altruists, who conclude that egoism is selfishness and that God is pure love and pure self-sacrifice, that the divine egoists are the shepherds that guide their flocks, so the needs of the many and the lowly are provided for, and there is no contradiction inhering here, nor is the paradox of egoistic divinities caring for their flock, a problem at all. It is a pattern to emulate, an opportunity for growth, joy and love, and it is what the good divinities call us to do and live as, as living angels.

Summer Of 69

 

I was driving home alone from the lake on Sunday, 8/31/26, and I was listening to a classical rock station when the song, Summer of 69, cam on, the nostalgic song about love and lost youth, being the best days of the singer’s life. This great pop tune, by Bryan Adams and Jim Vallance, and sung by Adams, got me to thinking.


Are the glory days of high school and one’s late teens and early twenties typically the best day of a young person’s life? Likely so, since the vast majority of adults of any race, any generation, are groupist and nonindividuators.


My take is that, if one would self-realize for a lifetime, then the day before one died would be the best day of one’s life. Just a thought.

Monday, August 31, 2026

Darlene Graham

 

Yesterday, 8/30/26, I was driving back to the Twin Cities from our lake cabin in Hubbard County. I was listening to a weekend roundup with Clay Travis and Buck Sexton on a Fox News radio station. I usually do not have a bone to pick with them but what they said about Darlene Graham, dismissing her scornfully as being wholly unfit, unworthy to serve as the new US Senator from South Carolina; their foolish remarks really irked me.


One of them depreciated her worth severely as unworthy to serve as South Carolina’s future US Senator.. They said she knew nothing, and implied she is not very bright, and that smart candidates make the best politicians.


It is true that she is under-informed, but I do not know that she is smart or not. Chuck Schumer likely is quite smart and politically very savvy, but few Senators have done some much to destroy America.


She is loyal to Trump, and that is valuable in a Senator. She should just admit she is an amateur but that she will hire excellent advisors, and that she will grow into the job, which she will if elected. She should reassure the voters disarmingly that her judgment is sound and wise, and that she will be a loyal backbencher for the Trump agenda. That is what she will do if elected, and that is precisely what we need.


Far more important to me than a political expert and being a Washingtonian insider is if she is a principled conservative who will vote as she promised the voters, that she will listen and often obey voter wishes, and that she will vote as she promised as a principled conservative.


There are many wicked but clever politicians who hate and hurt America once elected.

Wednesday, August 26, 2026

Psychic Pain

 

I recently hurt my lower back at work and now am undergoing treatment and physical therapy to restore my ability to work and live pain-free as I have usually enjoyed. When that pulled set of lumbar muscles were raging the pain was near unbearable.


Physical pain, chronic and ever less bearable when very intense, can wreck a person’s life. I have never much subscribed to the outlook that suffering and pain are ennobling beyond a certain point.


Chronic or severe pain is something I would like medical science, God or folk medicine to eradicate or lessen considerably.


This all got me considering that it is an oversight, a mistake not to contemplate that spiritual or psychic pain, chronic and mild or chronic and severe, might make people as much or even more unhappy than those suffering physical pain.


Spiritual or psychic pain, even endured long enough, for most people, especially nonindividuators, will deplete their self-esteem to such a low level, that resentful, grievance-mongering, self-loathing and loathing of others and the world is all that is left of that shattered self.


If that person does not get therapy, or get exorcised, or discipline the self in a strong, integrated, full mode, that person may become a living demon and act out accordingly.


Only a sense of gratitude, and a positive attitude, accompanied by love of God, the self, others and creation itself can reverse and reduce whatever level of psychic or spiritual pain afflicting that person.

Thursday, August 20, 2026

Hoffer's Working And Thinking On The Waterfront, Pages 13-18

 

his blog entry is my writing out and commenting on Eric Hoffer’s content from Page 13 to through Page 18 of his book, Working and Thinking on the Waterfront, June 1958—May 1959. Here it is:


Hoffer (H after this): “


June 22


Nine and three-quarter hours on the Hawaiian Wholesaler in Encinal. Steady grind but the loads moved slowly. A good bunch. I felt better at 6 P.M. than I did in the morning.



I spoke with a tall Montenegrin whom I call Negus. He is Communist in his sympathies, bitter about this country, chock-full of grievances, but we get along. I asked him how many years ago Stephen Dushan lived. He answered correctly: about six hundred years ago. I felt I could discuss with this barely literate Montenegrin some of the things I had learned from Diehl’s Byzantium. I pointed out that the Bible was translated into Serbian, Bulgarian, and Russian before it was translated into German, French, and English. How come? Because in the West the Catholic Church was an independent power, an imperial power, and it did not want to see the formation of national churches which might be promoted by a translation of the Bible into common speech.”


My response: Notice how the Catholic Church in the West had a totalitarian grip on all nations under its auspices, in ecclesiastical as well as in political arena. Centralized power kept the people down and controlled. Very corrupt and not from Jesus at all, though it was done in His name.


H: “On the other hand, the Byzantine church, being under the thumb of the Emperor, was interested solely in the Christianization of the warlike barbarians, and this could be effected most readily by the formation of national churches.


Eventually, national churches came into being also in the West, and nations crystallized around these churches. This is a significant point. The compact churchly organization of Christianity promoted nation formation, while Islam, being without a church organization, could not supply a nucleus for national crystallization. This suggests that compact Communist parties rather than promote internationalism may in the long run foster nationalist separation.”


My response: Hoffer may have been right to declare that compact Communist organizations within a subjugated nations could serve as a local nucleus for the rise of nationalist fervor and aspiration for local people to have their own country, their own identity.


H: “He was listening attentively and shaking his head, but I had no way of telling whether he got the hang of what I said. When I finished he shook my hand and said: ‘It is always wonderful to talk with you.’ Of one thing I am sure. He will always remember, and brag about it, that the Bible was translated into Serbian long before it was translated in English—that Serbian literature is more ancient than English literature.


Lili and the boy have been on my mind all these days. I am following a policy of restraint: to see them only once a week. I must not acquire the habit of seeing them too often. I am going to die alone, and it is too late in life to start feeling lonely.:


My response: It seems that Hoffer the great soul knew he needed mostly to live alone to keep his independence and creativity alive: he loved Lili and little Eric, but he may not have been able to live with them each day.


H: “The kink in my back is gone. Yesterday’s work did it. The world looks clean and fresh after last night’s rain. I have a long list of chores to do, and I am just getting ready to clean my room. Before starting I read the last few pages of Byzantium. I cannot tell as yet what I got out of the book. It needs vigor to last a thousand years.


5 P.M. Spent a hectic day getting things done. Now I am caught up. After a meal of lettuce salad and pea soup I sit down to drink a glass of tea and read. I happened to read the latest issue of the nation. Suddenly I threw it away as a distasteful thing (whining, self-righteous, carping, petulant) and turned to a new travel book by Lord Kinross. This is a continuation of his book on the interior of Asia Minor.


7 P.M. The second Kinross book, as far as I read, is inferior to the first. Since I am in the mood to make it easy for myself I switched to another book—a delightful one. It is a book of letters written by an American woman who lived in Jerusalem 1953-54. It is a warm, sensitive, honest book. My first reaction is: What delightful people Americans are. I ought perhaps to say fine people.”


My response: Yes, Americans over all are delightful and fine.


H: “And saying this I reflect that I certainly am not an American (hinting that he is an illegal immigrant, Ed Says?). Under similar circumstances I would have been neither delightful nor fine. Here she is among total strangers and she does not carp or criticize (Unlike the carping, foreign intellectuals visiting here, Ed Says), or betray the least trace of bad temper. The American’s capacity for fraternization is a noble feature, a true foretaste of the brotherhood of man.”


My response: Here is another Hofferian paradox which somehow is a true statement about Americans: on one hand Americans masses are capable of fraternizing and brotherhood as part of an enormous working class and middle class, and on the other hand, America’s capitalistic, individualistic culture offers an authentic brotherhood, only reachable and true as individualists cooperate and compete but not viciously or to set up strict social pecking orders, not as hierarchical and rigid as elsewhere in the world. The book is Letters from Jerusalem by Mary Clawson. I shall probably sit up all night reading it.


H; I spent 5 hours (8-1) with Lili and the boy. Lili is wholly herself and a joy to be with. The boy is of absorbing interest to me. Though almost three years old he is yet to me a stranger—someone from another world come to live among us. He is tireless, fairly clumsy, and can be wonderfully affectionate.


In the afternoon the doorbell rang and a young man came up. He is working for the U.S. Information Office, and seemed intelligent and alert. We talked about the backward countries and how terribly handicapped an American is when dealing with them. It is hopeless to try to win the weak over to our side.”


My response: The weak are groupist generally, fanatical and sadomasochistic, either those richer and more powerful beat and oppress them, or are cowering and defeated, ready and deserving to be overthrow and deprived of power, position, wealth and perhaps their lives. The weak see the world as a power struggle, either one is abject and defeated, or ascendant and ready to take over.


H: “We have no ideology to impart, no faith to propagate, and no pride we can share with others. We have much to give in skills and tangible things. We can teach backward people how to work and how to be efficient. But no backward country could ever identify itself with America and be won over completely to our side. How strange it is! The whole world is imitating us, is becoming Americanized, yet the countries that become like us tend to resent us. And the reason is that we cannot win the intellectuals, the men of words, the self-appointed spokesmen who stand between us and the millions we try to help. All the rudeness and biting comes from the intellectuals, and we must have the dossier of the intellectual from way back at our finger tips—from his first appearance as a scribe with the invention of writing. An American is more truly of the masses than any intellectual anywhere, and he can benefit the masses more than any intellectual can do.”


My response: What a rich paragraph, true and representative of Offer; he is correct that we cannot reach the masses of the Third World the American Way, the land of individualism, moral egoism-altruism, the land of capitalism, fabulous opportunity and much personal liberty.


When Hoffer write than an American is more truly of the masses everywhere than any intellectual anywhere, and that he can benefit the masses everywhere more than any intellectual can do, this is the case but those masses must become, each of them or most of them, individuating anarchist supercitizens in their own constitutional republic, bless with riches, capitalism and liberty—this updated version of the American Way as the global culture, political and economic system, locally blended by the natives with their way of life as they see fit—this is the world that Hoffer anticipated coming about after his death, as he sensed it come about eventually sensed it decades ago.


H: “June 25


Nine hours on the Pope & Talbot Leader at Howard Street. Nothing much to do all day, but the last hour was hectic—sewer pipe. Since I didn’t sleep enough last night I feel tired.


I saw today a gentle-spoken longshoreman whom I have not seen for over a year. He works most o the time on the Oakland side of the bay. He is afflicted with an eruption around his nose. It has become much worse now. The flesh of his face is being eaten away, and his eyes are lusterless and lost amidst the expanse of decomposition. I told him how glad I was to see him. It is difficult to visualize the suffering of the man, particularly his thoughts as he rises in the morning.


July 1


Nine hours on the Flying Enterprise at Pier 34. A busy day but not unpleasant. The work though steady was not rushed.


But morning and evening are now cold and wet, but the middle of the day has a warm brilliance. The bay as seen through the huge open door in the back of the dock seemed a fairyland. I don’t think a landscape can come into a room through a window. It can come in only through a door.


The fact that I accomplish little when I take time off disqualifies me as a writer. I do have an original idea now and then. If I hang on with all of my might, I eventually put together a few thousand words. The most crucial words are never at my service. I have to search and recruit them anew each time.



July 2


Followed the Flying Enterprise to Oakland. An easy day in warm weather. A discussion with several Slavonians on the relative merits of America and the Old Country. What it comes to is that this is not a country for the old. After twenty years in America, these Slavonians are still homesick for their native village. They are excellent workers—skilled and conscientious. They look healthy, and young for their age. But the American tempo grates on them. They talk of the ease and the slowness back home, and how men over fifty no longer work but sit around talking and sipping coffee, letting their children take care of things, and remain hale until they are eighty or more. Actually, none of these Slavonians would be happy if they went back. A few tried and rushed back to America. I mentioned the fact. One of them said: ‘It may be so, but it will be our greed that will drag us back.:


My response: The way of life is faster in America, but wealth and opportunity can help one rise economically if one will hustle here.


H: “Early this morning on my way to work I felt a burning pain in the arms. It seemed to me for a moment that had I been without this pain I would have been wholly happy. In a moment like this I realize how lucky we are when nothing at all—good or bad—happens to us.”


My response: It may be that Hoffer’s philosophical worldview is revealed here: Hoffer the Stoic suggests we are happiest when nothing at all good or bad happens to us on a given day, and this seems evidence of the Stoic outlook brought to my attention in a 2024 article by Philosopher Pedro Gonzalez.

Wednesday, August 19, 2026

Hoffer's Working And Thinking On The Waterfront, Pages 7-12

 

Hoffer (H after this): “June 10


Didn’t do a thing. Took Lili and the child to lunch and then to the Indian exhibition at the Palace of the Legion of Honor.


I was roused by an article in the latest Nation. It was written by a fellow named Halevy who is obviously an American writer living in Mexico. He has recently paid a visit to the U.S., and his article deals with Disneyland and Las Vegas. My impression is as follows: The man is some sort of radical, and is extremely money-conscious. He is contemptuous of people who throw away their money. Chances are he made some money in real estate, and went to Mexico, where living is cheap, to write. His contempt for America is standard. In one sentence he says we worship the almighty buck, and in the next sentence he grinds his teeth at the levity and stupidity with which we throw away our money. He resolves the paradox by saying that our wasting is a way of punishing our idols.”


My response: Americans work hard and play hard, and are generous and produce wealth so if they have some fun with what they have earned why not. This writer needs to butt out and leave the masses to run their own lives as they see fit.


H: “The article tells little about this country but a lot about the writer. I am often struck by the money-consciousness of many radicals, and their skill in business, particularly in real estate. The radicals on the waterfront have left-wing principles and right-wing bank accounts.”


My response: It seems to me that they are not anti-wealth so much as they are jealous of the masses for having wealth, and living high: the radicals, intellectuals and other elites should have money and live high but the masses rise above their place when they have wealth and enjoy it. What fraudulent, misanthropic hypocrities.


H: “June 11


Eight hours on the sorting pile at Pier 29. As hard a day as I have had in a long time. The company has finally figured out how to keep people going without a pause. No sooner is one row of loads started than another row is all lined up waiting for you. I run up a sweat all day long partly because of the heat and partly because of the rushing.


The Manchester Guardian Weekly is suggesting De Gaulle, if not a fool, is a weak sister. Some letter writer sees De Gaulle as Hindenburg who unknowingly prepares the ground for a Hitler. My feeling is that whatever authoritarian regime may arise in France it will be tempered by rationality and good sense.


June 12


The whole morning I fought the impulse to meet Little Eric as he comes out of the nursery school. My attachment to the boy is being reinforced by a sense of loneliness. Men feel lonely when they do not do the one thing they ought to do. It is only when we fully exercise our capacities—when we grow—that we have roots in the world and feel at home in it.”


My response: What Hoffer writes above is true not just of men but all humans more ore less. Individuating is the one thing we should be doing, in our unique way with one of our special interests serving to express our creative talent—that is when we feel at home in the world and not strangers in it, neither estranged from God the Ultimate Creator and Individuator, nor refusing to live as God had destined us to fulfill.


H: “I have been reading a couple of articles on Russian science (one in the Nation and the other in Commentary). They confirmed my suspicion that freedom is not indispensable for cultural creativeness. A despotism that respects and subsidizes science, literature, and art can be a good milieu for creativeness in those fields.”


My response: That may be so, but I still maintain that all the people are lumpy with gifts, talents and ability, and the most optimum milieu form them to wax great as creators is in a free society.


H: “9 P.M. Just returned from seeing a French picture—a crime story, The Girl on the Third Floor. It was a civilized picture. The criminals seemed humane, and everyone is rational. Not too exciting, but it kept me fully interested for 1 ½ hours.


June 13




Seven hours on the Norwegian ship Hoegh Silverstream. Rubber wrapped in burlap or paper. Partner one of the laziest men on the waterfront, yet he worked well and was pleasant. He is, however, a total, pathological liar, hence conversation with him is meaningless. For a moment it seemed to me that only conversation about ideas can be honest. Most other talk is nine-tenths make-believe.”


My response: Hoffer is likely correct that intellectual conversation is the most interesting, meaningful, honest and true. The fluffy conversation is more meaningless, more fruitless, dishonest and a waste of breath.


H: “At noon I heard a Sicilian proverb: “The tongue has not bones but it can break bones.”


In the afternoon a young clerk came over to talk with me. He is a graduate of the University of San Francisco, fairly intelligent, pious and superficial. I talked a lot and it did me good. Yesterday I spent twenty-four hours without talking to anyone, so I needed talking.”


My response: It seems likely that the longshoreman knew that Hoffer was famous as a writer and thinker, so they did not seem especially bothered by that fact and his presence, though intellectuals like that young clerk would occasionally seek Hoffer out.


June 14


Pier 26, British ship. Discharging meat and apples from New Zealand. The apples, Rome Beauties, are as fine as any I have seen.


The British crew on the ship make an excellent impression. Compared with average-run Americans, these British sailors have a freshness about them and an individual distinctness. These people have not spent their lives running, and they have not been run over by life. One wonders whether American could continue to exist when we stop running. There is a streak of extremism us: we either run or do not move at all. To stop running might edge most of toward inertness and stagnation.


My response: Hoffer could well be right that there is extremism built into the American way of life.


H: June 15


Danish ship at Pier 31. More meat from New Zealand. I have been feeling quite well the last couple of days—light of heart and alert.


Diehl’s book on Byzantium is pleasant and sometimes stimulating. Here and there Byzantium reminded me of today’s America. He quotes a sixth-century writer about the popular preoccupation with chariot races in the Hippodrome which inflamed men’s souls to inordinate heights of passion: ‘Should the green charioteer take the lead, someone are in despair; should the blur overtake him half the city is in mourning. People with no personal interest in the matter utter frantic imprecations; those who have suffered nothing feel grievously wounded.’ He adds, ‘The most serious men declared that without theatre and Hippodrome life would have virtually joyless.’ The Emperor himself took sides in the contest as passionately as anyone.


I have always wondered whether it is vital for a society that all its members should have some common subjects which they all are equally interested in and in which they all have some expertise.”


My response: To the sentence above, I assent enthusiastically—it could be that some common subjects of universal following and interest among all members of the community serves as something like a metaphysical or social glue or metanarrative, holding to people together as a people.


H: “In Byzantium the common subjects were theology and chariot races. In this country they are machines and sports.


On the way home, in the bus, it struck me that Little Eric is the only human being I have grown onto—that the relation between us is that of a graft. Many elements went into the making of this graft, not the least of which is that he is my namesake. The fact is also important that he is still to me, after 2 ½ years, a new human being. Now and then I feel like asking him how he likes this country.


June 16


In this morning’s Chronicle Tito is quoted as saying of the Chinese Communists that in attacking Jugoslavia they are using ‘such insulting language that even Marx and Lenin, if they could hear it, would turn over in their graves.’ Unintentionally, Tito is here pointing at Marx and Lenin as paragons of rudeness. Good manners are inconceivable without a degree of objectivity, and the give and take of compromise.”


My response: I do not think anyone would deny that anyone would deny that Hoffer was a man he thought, wrote and lived paradoxes, or that he was a cultural and political moderate, but that is strongly reinforced by the sentence above where he writes that good manners are inconceivable without a degree of objectivity, and the give and take of compromise.


The fanatics, revolutionaries and ideologues who hate America and seek for it to be destroyed and overthrown, are often loud, angry, rude even violent people, and they mean what they say, and will be much worse, more violent, intolerant and vicious, once they hold the reins of power.


H: “He who clings with all his might to an absolute truth fears compromise more than the devil. He throttles the soft amenities which would dovetail him with others, and blur his uncompromising stance. Thus it happens when a faith loses it potency rudeness often serves as a substitute.


June 17


To Stockton with Lili and the boy. The child is utterly charming and obnoxious by turns. It was a good day and a long one. We started at seven in the morning and came back at seven-thirty in the evening. Lili is herself again, which means that she is genuine, and incredibly forbearing. The boy was hard to handle—he spites or humors me as the spirit moves him. On the way back Lili turned, on the spur of the moment, into a road which goes to the top of Mount Diablo. My fear was that we had not gas enough. I shall remember vividly the drive up because of my unceasing alarm until we returned to the main highway.


I spent about $25, and they were well spent. It was the first time in months that I have gotten out of the city. The country, though scorched by summer, was pleasing to the eye. The yellows were satin, and the greens of a metallic quality and a dozen shades.”

Monday, August 17, 2026

New Lows

 

I am pro-capitalist and pro-business but it seems that we are now a society with low morals in business affairs and declining further all the time.


We have never paid so much for car and household insurance, but they charge more and more, and agents provide no service, and underwriters nickel and dime us to cut down payouts, all the time when rates have doubled or tripled in the last three years.


We live in Bloomington, Minnesota and joined the Star-Tribune old employees credit union in our neighborhood about 12 years ago, and it was excellently run. Then another credit union conglomerate bought it up about 8 years ago, and the service and costs declined noticeably, right away, but we just lived with it because they are a mile from our house, and other banks are likely not much better.


Well, yes, it got worse when a 3rd credit union conglomerate bought it out about 3 years ago, and their computer bookkeeping was a nightmare to transfer and services were reduced further. We survived that transition but will not this latest one.


About 6 weeks ago we members were told they were closing their safety deposit box accounts and we have a certain time to clean out our boxes or they would give our possessions to the state of Minnesota They offered safety deposit boxes at another credit union 10 miles away at a bank in St. Louis Park.


We had previously at our neighborhood credit union, a large generous, box which easily held our legal documents and property titles books 15 by 20 inches and a foot deep, all for $45/year and we were satisfied.


Today, 8/17/26 my wife and I took our documents to that other credit union. They trotted out a little box about 8 x 11-inch and 3 inches deep for $45 per year, free for the first year, but we would require two such boxes and to squish our 11 by 14-inch copies to fit into them and pay $90/year in 2027 with the privilege to drive 10 miles away to use the deposit box.


Once again pay more for less, much less. They likely are closing the unprofitable credit union by our house so they first got all the boxes emptied out now and now they are "temporarily closed."


We are looking for a new credit union now and one with a generous sized box for precious documents and titles, or to find private storage. Folks, it ain't getting better out there. Pay more, get less, much less.