One of the most frustrating aspects of being a great soul is that one is isolated from what others around one really think and feel. It is one thing to be a nonindividuating individualist flouting group norms: the fallout and punitive push back are hurtful but manageable.
The punitive retaliation reaches a whole new level once one is, like I am, a great soul flouting local group norms. In their civilized, peaceful, quiet phase, such retaliation is relatively mild and endurable. It is under these circumstances that the nonindividuating joiners about me, inveterate in their hatred of me, competition with me, their obsessive power struggling against me, and their permanent willingness and willfulness to defeat me and oppose me, act out their reality as my hard shell enemies of me. Their secretive reisistance is how they maintain the cold peace between us.
One of their primary, active, institutionalized means of attacking me is their shrewd means of maintaining group silence about their discrimination, with its concomitant withholding of information, news, communications, feelings and important changes. To keep someone in the dark completely is cruel, punishing and effective. I refer to it as rats running in the walls with all the scheming and machinations that are implied. I ask them if they are rats, if the noise in the wall is them implementing their destructive games around me and to me, but they deny being rats, deny running and plotting in the walls, deny discriminating against me, denying that anything at all is going on that I do not know about. They lie with straight faces, and, are utterly without morals (other than they conventional morality towards each other--how the stranger, the outsider, the great soul is mistreated is morally acceptable), as they look me in the eye and announce that nothing discriminatory is taking place. These hypocrites go right back to scheming and plotting the second I leave the room.
Deep down, they seek to isolate the great soul, to make him feel alone (insane in his isolation that he must be imagining the whole thing), to smash his rebellion, his independence, his sense of worth and individuating self-esteem. Always, the basically evil, defeated nonindivudating joiners surrounding a great soul attack him incessantly, isolating and undermining his self-confidence--if they can achieve this cherished aim--to break him as a person so that he will surrender, apologize and limp back into the group fold and be their low-ranked victim persecuted forever. They get their marching orders from the Evil Spirits that run this world, and making an example of any individualist that dares leave the herd is the most instinctive, brilliant technique ever devised for denying each person the audacity, ego and will to rise up, stand out and maverize, answering the beckoning call from the Good Spirits and from God, Deself, to dare to be alone, to dare to overcome loneliness, to dare to be alive, to come to know love, achievement, happiness and divine salvation.
The great soul thus is oblivious to what the secretive enemies of him are up to, because they maintain a total silence around him to exclude him from inside information, a way of punishing him for leaving the pack. It is also a reward for insiders for remaining. It is also a way of reinforcing social rank. Those inside and part of the social pecking order are rewarded with the latest information, both interesting and useful to them to survive. The great soul is so far outside the boundaries of the pack that this radical outlier is reminded constantly of his social worthlessness and lack of popularity ranking by the fact that loner/losers way out there receive no feedback and updates from group-livers. This is a powerful motivator to remain in the pack, and, even the great soul, as confident and of strong self-esteem and self-love as he is, it still hurts to be rejected and depreciated in terms of social ranking. He will go on and do his thing, but that nagging social withrawal of approval does work away at his sense of self-worth, and the surrounding groupists withdrawing support and affection from him do realize how powerful is this communal weapon that they are wielding.
In the active phase, when the war between groupists (now a raging, roving, militant mob, a rumbling mass movement on the prowl and brooking no individualism and no dissenters from group-living and group values) and groupists is fanatical and violent, great souls, individuators, mavericks and individualists will just be killed, smashed, tortured or imprisoned.
At this point the wicked groups running society no longer feel the need to hide their plans, doings, and feelings towards the great soul. They are now on the march, and could care less if he knows what they are up to, are what horrible crimes that they have committed. They are out in the open, and on the march, and his disapproval and criticism are irrelevant and discarded as they trample him and his ilk underfoot.
Be aware and be very afraid when the hypocrite become an open fanatic: the great souls in that community will not survive. They just need to arrange their affairs, and await for the inevitable martyring of them by the entire community. Satan and Lera are out in the open, ruling and rampaging and the world holocaust may then be upon us.
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